i fear until my chicken cant stop drooling```

i so fear...
i fear my stupid....
i stupid as shit....
nope....
shit is better than me
shit at least can fertilizer
I???
i lose a shit...
shit is a nice organisms...
it help shit to grow....
tree give us oxygen....

me?
i can do any thing?
i lose a non-organisms?
ya i'm lose...i useless....
i alive is wasting the oxygen....
wasting the food...i killing the animal....
i breaking the animal family....
i wasting the place of the earth.....


i'm a stupid....
i don't know what i want....
i don't know what abut my mind....
i can't control my mind...
i can't think....
i only know that i want to change it....
but i don't know how to change....
i so fear....
i fear i not a human...
i din't have normal human mind...
i din't have feel.....
i din't fear die...
i din't have sad...
i din't have happy....
i only have many jealousy...

i get a target now....
i want success...
i only want many success....
the success is mine....
success only can use by me....
i wont give the success to other....
i but i can't do it...
i lazy....